I am looking everywhere for her. Every time I turn to see where she used to be… there is this big kid there. There is this person who is learning and growing every day. When I squint and turn sideways I see a bit of my baby, but…. I think she will only be in my memory and photographs from now on. A little girl has taken her place. Sure, she isn’t a typical little girl. She doesn’t run or jump or scream "NO!" in my face, but I have never met a little girl with more personality in my life. Her smile is enough to bring a smile to my face on even the gloomiest of days. I will admit her tears and shrieks are enough to raise my blood pressure too though 😉 . It may not be all sunshine and lolipops. Some days are hard. Some days I want my baby back. However, when I look at the little girl she has become… I get to witness a miracle every. single. day.
This week was a big milestone. We converted her crib to a bed. The main incentive was a beautiful quilt that a dear friend of our family made. Her name is Janice and she and her husband are two of the kindest people you could ever have the fortune of meeting. We don’t see them often, but I will say that when we do… it is wonderful. They are just good people. If you are blessed… you know the kind of people I am talking about 🙂 .
Hey… but where’s that big girl… oh … there!
and a close up because… well the quilting she had done is phenomenal!
The quilting is extra special because Neil’s grandmother loved all things butterflies. It is truly a work of art. It is folded in half on the crib as well so it will last her for a very long while 🙂 . The best part of all handmade things, at least in my opinion, is knowing that something was made for you while someone was thinking fondly of you. I am grateful that Alyssa will have something tangible to remind her. The backing is equally as gorgeous and quite sentimental!
Now… as I took those pictures I thought she was growing, but then I played with the camera some more. She is a kid. I feel like it happened over night. I took these pics with her glasses off because on our diaper board we are having weekly photo contests and this weeks theme is “eyes” 🙂
Seriously? This smile and exclamation of “AHHHH” in excitement… what’s better in life?
So, she looks exactly like my Neil… I do not debate that! LOL! … but… this is proof she got at least a bit of my mischievous personality LOL!
and this one… well… it is proof that she is in fact a kid now…
All in all… I know I will miss the baby… but I wouldn’t trade this little girl for anything in the world. She is amazing. She is beautiful. She is perfect :-*