even if it’s only peeking between the clouds! Our weather is suffering from serious mood swings. I feel like just when I’m ready to pack up the winter clothes we wake up to a cold and windy day! Today? It snowed! In the desert! IN MARCH! Insanity I tell you. Just. Plain. Crazy! We didn’t get snow at our house but it was raining pretty well when Alyssa’s bus got here. I was kind of bummed because I really wanted to take her on a trike ride to the park this afternoon. Luckily when she woke up the weather had brightened up. There was still a chill in the air but not enough to keep us from having some fun!
Alyssa has always cracked me up because she hesitates to do something until she knows she can do it correctly, and then once she does it? She doesn’t stop! The trike has proven to be no exception. I put her on it today and she had progressed from a look of sheer determination a couple days ago to a look of sheer excitement.
She still doesn’t want to hold on all the time but she’s improved immensely in just a few days! She’s also gotten more determined to make it move all by herself!
See the wide open mouth? She was being a total cheeseface so I decided I should snap a couple pics. She was babbling all sternly and trying to make the pedals move. HA! She wanted me to put away the iPhone and push that trike! She managed to ride the whole way to the park! The best part about going to the community park when the weather isn’t optimal is that there is no one on the swings!
I was thinking about the first time I put her on a swing. It was when we visited Colarado in the Fall of 2008. I thought for sure she’d love the swing because she likes to be tossled about. Um. No. She hated it. She even hated it just sitting on my lap. It is just amazing to me that not even two years later she will let me push her a bit higher each time she goes for a swing. My little girl who fussed on the swings…
has now figured out that they are not only safe but also 100% fun! Even sitting on the trike I said “You want to go on the swing?” and her head whipped around and she grinned that same grin. I love it. I love that even if something is a bit scary in the beginning she eventually figures out that new isn’t always bad!
I feel like what took her quite a while to grasp with the swings took no time at all with school. The little girl who fussed her first couple days without me by her side now flashes her teachers a huge smile as she comes off the bus. The little girl who cried the first day I put her on the bus now cries if the first bus that comes to the house isn’t hers. We have been so truly blessed in this transition to school. Talk about soaking up the sun! Each school day I feel like we get a bit of extra light in our lives. Her teacher takes time to e-mail me with what happened during the day and it’s been the biggest relief during this transition. I swear every day I read her e-mail and cannot help but smile.
Alyssa has had a stellar first two days of the week. She’s starting to follow a couple random verbal cues during morning yoga. Which is no small feat. In addition, they are working on presenting her with more choices to make throughout the day and have introduced a device to help. They are truly doing an amazing job of helping her reach so many goals. I’m just so grateful that she is surrounded by so much positive energy when she enters the walls of that building. Even Monday when we had a rough start to the day she was nothing but smiles when she got off the bus after school.
I am at such a place of peace. It’s so odd for me to think of where I was before her birthday this year. I am so thankful I took the time to pray, to write, and to work through things rather than around them. I think I have let go of so much lately while embracing so much at the same time. I think now I’m doing a good job of holding tight to the things that are important. At the end of the day our lives are filled with everything we need. I get to spend my life with an amazing husband who is a wonderful father to a miraculously joyful little girl. I cannot imagine walking this path with anyone else. Scratch that. I don’t think I would have made it to this point on the path with anyone else. As hard as some days have been I wouldn’t change any of it if I could. I may want to go back and tell my previous self that it will all be OK, but the last three years have made all three of us who we are today. Today? My daughter managed to separate her pointer finger from the rest of her hand. Today? I squealed with delight as it happened and pulled my phone out of my pocket to capture it… and then realized that it wouldn’t have filled my heart with nearly as much joy if it hadn’t taken three years to get there!
I’ll forever be grateful that Alyssa has made me embrace each milestone as a mountain moved. I feel like I have made it through the patch of darkness. There will be another bump in the road eventually, but until then we’ll be working hard to soak up the sun! Whether that sun be the light in the sky or the light that shines from some one else… we’ll work hard to take it all in!