even when we don’t think we need anything at all. Really this week He has proven again and again that he’s got our backs. I flew to a state that I had never visited, to stay with a family I had never met in person (don’t worry we’ve talked for well over four years 😉 ) , and got answers from people I had just met. You wouldn’t be able to convince me that God wasn’t stirred through all of this. I know that He set up so much of what got us to that point. Including the woman that told me about Windrose living in the same city as the clinic and making a visit out to see us back in January. We are truly truly blessed.
This morning we woke up after a restful night of sleep…well at least Alyssa’s was… I may have stayed out too late with the girls! We had decided to go to church with my friend Jada and her family. We used to go religiously (heehee yes that is an intentional pun) until I had a bit of a falling out with our local pastor. It had been a long time since Alyssa had been in church and a long time for me as well. The music in the beginning made me a bit emotional…but nothing could compare to the tears I cried holding my little girl. It’s so amazing to me that my little girl who is fighting so many internal battles can still manage to smile. As I stood listening to the pastor pray… I began praying as well… with my daughter melted into my shoulder. I sobbed. Those of you who have held my daughter know that she does NOT melt into your shoulder. She is one to throw herself back, or lunge for the ground, or otherwise try to be hard to hold. Instead? In that moment her little body was content enough to snuggle into me as I prayed.. and in my heart I just felt this complete sense of peace. This next few weeks or even months are going to be hard. I know that. However, I also know that we have received answers that will forever help us to give our little girl a better quality of life. She’s been so much more relaxed this last couple days. I know the excessive amount of sleeping will wear off but I also know it’s a sure sign that her body is taking the time to repair itself. Afterall, even Cheryl’s cat wanted a chance to snuggle!
We made it to the end of another day. God willing the rough days will soon be a thing of the past and we will get to revel in what a strong and amazing girl Alyssa truly is…not that we don’t do that already. 😉 Today was such an empowering and delightful day filled with friends. I’m so overwhelmed that even being so far away from home, while going through such an emotional time, we are still wrapped in so much love. I’ll never be able to express to the families that I spent my time with on this trip just how much their presence and acceptance made all of this as easy as it could possibly be. I’m forever grateful to be surrounded by people who’s hearts are so open to helping the people around them…and grateful to be around them!