or at least as I sit here this evening that is what it feels like. I always joke that I may never finish a book because I don’t have the attention span to make it past the first chapter. The odd thing with life is we don’t get to decide when the pages are turned. A lot of times you look around and realize you are smack dab in the middle of the latest chapter of your life. This last couple months has felt like it’s own little segment of life. I feel like they went by slowly while simultaneously flying by. Alyssa has come so far in such a short segment of time that parts of it feel like a dream. I wanted to “bookmark” this segment of life by changing the header of the blog. It made me choke up a little to take down the picture that I took of my baby… but I figured the picture that finally made me see her as a kid and not a baby was probably the appropriate choice for all these changes.
Today I could almost see the page turn to the next chapter as Alyssa sat watching me eat lunch seeming to want to participate. I figured it was worth a shot. I threw an apple and a bit of apple juice in the Vitamix… and what do you know? She ate about 90% of it. Now, a few months ago if I said “she ate” it meant that we put food in her mouth which she would thrust back out with her tongue perhaps ingesting a particle and at the end of it she was wearing more than she was digesting. Today? There was barely even a mess. Admittedly I made more of a mess transporting the food from the bowl to her mouth than she did eating it. LOL. There was very little gagging and when she did gag? She corrected her position and kept on eating. At dinner I decided to give it another whirl. The peas and rice were a bit thinner in consistency than the apple had been. She required more wiping of the sides of her mouth with the spoon after bites. (If you’ve ever fed a baby jarred food… you know the motion I mean. LOL.) However, she ate an entire 4 oz jar of baby food with barely any waste. At one point I turned to Neil and said “Geesh. I could have fed her in a restaurant!” I know it sounds silly, but spoon-feeding her used to mean mentally preparing for bath time afterward.
So, now the new chapter begins. I think our short-term goal will be to get to where 30% of her nutrition is taken orally. Well, 30% of her “waking hour” nutrition at least. Ha! I’m totally not waking her up to do part of her night feed. I think that is a reasonable goal. She did so well today I’m still kind of in a state of shock. It was the first time in a while I had tried simply because she was doing so well with her bolus feedings and they were less effort. However, this felt like a huge step in the right direction! I’m excited to see what the next few weeks bring! 🙂